Pseudo think

Its time.

2011-04-19T01:19:00.000+06:30

When in doubt, write. Usually in an obdurate and illegible manner. A pity, internet does not allow me to get away with bad handwriting. A sign of things to come? Common, frivolous pursuits and hardly an original thought? There is little confusion today. The disagreements are all in tone nigh content. Sometimes its like a thousand penguins jumping into the sea. Need I remember anyone? The

The single minded pursuit of pointlessness

2010-11-15T00:31:00.004+06:30

Here I am again.Obsessed with, well, myself.The small trivial everyday soldiers of life have reached forward base. Well on their way to conquering my spirit.Can't hold on much longer I guess.Little more, and the deluge of inconsequential days will crush the rebellion.I live from day to day, always hoping that the constant mono-drone that life has to offer is a short undesirable stint.

Sleeplessness

2010-09-14T01:22:00.002+06:30

The value of sleepis only when you want tobut cannotin all other casesits quite useless

This too shall pass

2010-09-09T00:23:00.003+06:30

Living with people.I can't think of anything in life that tests you more often and severely than living with someone. Especially someone you like.Everyday you need to decide, me or you. Who steps back and gives way. There is no answer to this. You could do this for ten years and suddenly be overcome by irrational insecurity.Having your way is never a good idea anyway. You live with guilt, the

The importance of being earnest.

2010-08-31T14:08:00.003+06:30

A few thoughts that I have been munching on for the last few days.The first is that happiness is always a moving target. In college all I wanted was a management degree and a jobIn bschool I wanted a more fulfilling lifeIn my first job all I wanted was a boss who did not shout expletives at meIn my second I wanted the luxury of looking at the sky, some time for myself and a job that involved a

The equilibrium

2010-06-10T23:14:00.001+06:30

Life is good. Also bad.Always in equilibrium.And so it will pass.A lifetime, just like that.

Satisfaction

2009-07-30T00:48:00.002+06:30

Yeah.I lived.I am sure.I really did.All those unlived, unliving out there.Take a risk, Risk that rotting, decomposing riskless life of yours.take sip of poison with a breath of fresh air.

Nowhere

2009-07-14T00:24:00.002+06:30

is a good place to be.its stinks sometimes. Sometimes its just boring.Mostly its just a little lonely.nowhere is good place to be. If you have someone to give you company.

Total Dark Sublime

2009-06-14T22:29:00.001+06:30

Admirer as I think I amOf stars that do not give a damn,I cannot, now I see them, sayI missed one terribly all day.Were all stars to disappear or die,I should learn to look at an empty skyAnd feel its total dark sublime,Though this might take me a little time.

Desire

2009-06-10T17:21:00.002+06:30

And So it is...

Buried

2009-05-26T16:12:00.004+06:30

The last inhibitionsThe last principlesNow, grovelling is legalSad day for me. Like so many others.Reality is the harshest teacher in the world. First the dreams go, then the ego, then the dignity.What is left now?

Wanted

2009-05-23T02:13:00.003+06:30

A lucky break.

Speaking

2009-05-20T01:17:00.011+06:30

It all started with the need to scream. Aloud.So I took the more civil way out and started this blog. When you scream, you say dumb things, you rant, you rage, you say things you dont mean.Thats how I started.Now, I feel like speaking again. The demons have been quelled. The past though not on talking terms is no more the pariah. We are trying to make amends, me and my past. And getting on.

Thrift, Thrift, Horatio!

2009-05-16T01:53:00.006+06:30

"Thrift, thrift, Horatio! The funeral baked meats Did coldly furnish forth the marriage tables. Would I had met my dearest foe in heaven Or ever I had seen that day, Horatio." - HamletThe future looks bleak, The present confused.The past lacerating.There are regrets now, risks not needed,Life could have been livedwith a little thrift in dreams.Days could have gone, Just as meaningless.But no

Murphy

2009-05-15T12:04:00.000+06:30

Murphy was such a bastard.He was right.

A little less

2009-03-26T14:01:00.004+06:30

dreams of the past,nightmares of the future,they ask,master of the present,what have you done?have you smiled,twice more than you should have?made a day,little more beautiful than it was?helped a bit more than was practical?At 28,Do you claim to be unfazed?by greed and by emotion,by yourself chasing illusions,What have you done?A little more than was required?or a little less...this day you were

Evolution of Love

2009-02-09T01:17:00.000+06:30

Circa 2007, FebruaryLP: Hey, I want to ask you something...SC: Sure, go aheadLP(Shyly): Can I listen to telugu songs after we get married.SC:(Laughs for good measure, Frowns, Getting Married!): Of-course, darling(for impact)2009, FebruaryEarly one morning,LP: (Singing Loudly) ^%$%^%&*^&*^&*^ (Telugu song)SC: hush, hoosh, hushLP: (Even Louder) #^^$&^%&^%*^*&^SC: (Frowns, Getting Married! Sighs!

Into the shining sun

2008-12-28T01:55:00.006+06:30

ticking awaycatching upno escapeno getting awayinexorable, the wingsfreedom stingslife goes away and you holdmemories,fading away fastunrelentingbriefs flashesof time the greatest keeperin time we will allfade away fasttoo fastand still we try to to collectto enslave what we cannotHappiness come again,and this time no bindsno boundsno false notionsof things not mineThis time will be differentand

The Diary of Unemployment

2008-11-11T15:10:00.002+06:30

Day 1 to Day 7It is unfamiliarly good to wake up in the morning with the clock not running out of ticks for you to get dressed and make a run to the office. The office run requires you to unhinge your mental faculties and keep them aside so that they do not interfere with your functioning at office. You commit yourself to living from opening bell to lunch and then look forward to EOD.That said.

The construction of a catastrophe

2008-10-28T01:34:00.003+06:30

The reckless adventure of attempting the im-plausibleThe feeling of being a step closer to your calling in this worldThe madness of self belief in the face of an ever changing probabilityThe rush of blood from an anarchy of ideasThe anticipation of a possibility becoming a realityOn the precipice of disasterthe edge of catastropheis it all worth it?Does it matter?It is in the very nature of the

Certainty

2008-10-21T01:01:00.001+06:30

To wait for everything to be clear is to be certain about not taking a decision.

Contempt

2008-10-05T00:21:00.002+06:30

I have often been accused of having contempt for people(humanity), in general.Sometimes the disdain is so obvious that it makes some of my friends cringe.Well, yes. I do have contempt for people.For one thing, my biggest grouse in life is that we are too afraid of losing things which we do not really care about.And what do we do with things we really care about. For example, people close our

Inertia

2008-09-17T23:55:00.004+06:30

Whether good or bad, when something rolls, it rolls.To stop anything on a roll, something needs to happen.To look at momentum and just hope it will stop, the odds will even out or things cant get worse/better is stupid.Inertia drives the world. Someone needs to give it the right direction.

Plans change

2008-09-03T01:25:00.003+06:30

Plan AB PlanOne option. To succeed. Baaki sab bakwaas.

Plan A

2008-08-24T00:30:00.004+06:30

Plan A:Take classes at TIMEWrite a bookLearn tradingRead LotsBe HappyPlan B:Make a Plan B

Mr. Dumb Downer

2008-08-21T00:26:00.002+06:30

I need a lot of time.Time and Space. For myself.I feel claustrophobic with a job.Work needs to need me. Need my imagination, need my creativity, need my intellect.Or I don't need it.I am tired of dumbing down.That is the reason, I like movies and books.Good movies and good books.No dumbing down there.Woodehouse or Wilde don't want you to be dumb.Or they would be jobless.Kiewoloski or Coen

B for Bschool

2008-08-19T23:15:00.002+06:30

B in B school stands for business. Right? It does?And yet it astounds anyone if you tell them that you want to do something on your own after B-School.In my view, we should refer to them as S-Schools.Slavery-Schools.Which seems to be the only takeaway everyone likes to take-away.

Some Friends

2008-08-13T22:15:00.006+06:30

Like all else,Passion needs to be nurtured.An invaluable companion when the life defining moment comes around.I miss this friend of mine in Austria.Everytime; he makes some irksome comments, good conversation and interesting company.

Project Freedom

2008-08-12T01:04:00.002+06:30

If there is a clear path in front of you,A distinct and defined reward system,A timeframe for achievement,A safety net if you fail,Then don't kid yourself. You are employed.An entreprenuer has to live without these things.The advantages he has are independence of thought, a distinct awareness of fallibility or failure lurking around the corner and a hazy vision of the horizon. His horizon is so

Exceptional

2008-07-30T14:15:00.001+06:30

To do something exceptional, is it neccesary to think exceptional?Or is it just being the best at something conventional?

The way the wind blows

2008-07-27T01:17:00.001+06:30

For often I wonder,Why sadness,Why sorrow,why I write poetryon graves and corpses, of feelings trampled uponWhy not sunshine, why not the daffodils, why not the brookcrooked little paths, ephemeral love stories or feelings so delicate.but beauty extracts its price, nature never gives when there is nonethe best photographs, are still from the darkest roomsIf you stare long enough, even shadows are

A dust of snow

2008-05-25T16:18:00.001+06:30

Dust Of SnowThe way a crowShook down on meThe dust of snowFrom a hemlock treeHas given my heartA change of moodAnd saved some partOf a day I had rued.Robert Frost

Inspiration

2008-05-25T16:00:00.002+06:30

Inspiration can come from the wierdest and most unlikely of sources.Suddenly I am all gung ho about doing something on my own.My primary comfort for starting on my own is that regardless of what I can and cannot implement, at least I can USE my imagination.So I take my usual approach. Burn the bridges. It will force you to survive.As much for the thrill as for the payoff. I cannot live, cannot

Certainty

2008-05-16T01:14:00.002+06:30

I am quite sure, once again, that I am not a corporate banker.Not that I ever believed I was.At 27 years old, it feels good to strike off another career on your list of "what I cannot do with my life"I am tempted now to risk all and do something outrageous. Only the rent of my house and the EMI of my education loan stops me. How long?

Being in Bombay

2008-05-11T02:21:00.003+06:30

The one thing good about Bombay is the sea.It is not an uncommon thing. Many cities are based by the water.But Bombay is so starved of everything else, that the sea takes on a whole new meaning. It represents a peace and a gentleness that the daily life(?) in Bombay takes away. It is one place an average Mumbaikar can sit without being in a hurry to move on to the next mindless task at hand. One

Being a banker.

2008-05-08T23:40:00.010+06:30

The word banker has quite a twang to it.Makes one feel special like one is a doctor or a skiing proffessional or something. Something cool, something unique. Unfortunately thats not the truth. The only thing which sets bankers apart from rest of the world is that they are a ruthless but necessary evil in life. Very ruthless. Very necessary.Nah! I guess there is more to it. Banking is a profession

Aha!

2008-02-28T03:36:00.005+06:30

It's two thirty at night.Between now and fourteenth of August 2006, life has changed and an age passed by, and how!The funny thing is that I don't have much to say now.Maybe I am on the way to completely accepting everything or completely giving up, depending on the way you look at it.My interests have dwindled.There is less confusion at heart, but also no time to read Gibran and Neruda.There is

Psuedo Think ends.

2006-08-14T05:23:00.000+06:30

"You have to live with yourself before you live with others."http://wanderingpoems.blogspot.com/Just poems....

shesh

2006-07-06T04:20:00.001+06:30

Depressed

terii baateN

2006-07-05T05:31:00.001+06:30

terii baateN hii sunaane aayedost bhii dil hii dukhaane aayephuul khilte haiN to ham sochte haiNtere aane ke zamaane aayeaisii kuchh chup sii lagii hai jaiseham tujhe haal sunaane aayedil tootne ke bahaane dhoonte the ham ...shayad iss dard ko samajhne ke liye .....aur kya bataye dil ka haal ...jaane ham kise haal sunaane aaye?

And such was life

2006-06-17T13:55:00.001+06:30

Sleep at 5-6 amsurf for 5 hours a daywatch footballwork outplay badmintonplay footballeat out (everyday)dont collect material for classesclean up roomwatch moviesgo swimmingtease dharchakfeel sleepy in classesread woody allen (barely)read blogs (and criticize them)listen to musicget late for everythingforget books. cellphones and anything else portable in Bubba's roomlose room keyscoat the back

Fairy lands are fearsome too!

2006-06-14T23:31:00.001+06:30

'Dedication' Zembla, Zenda, Xanadu: All our dream-worlds may come true. Fairy lands are fearsome too. As I wander far from view Read, and bring me home to you.Salman RushdieSpells out the name of Rushdie's son "Zafar". I think I am, as a rule, biased against authors who derive their fame from sources other than their writing.This one is part of his book "Haroun and the sea of stories. Interesting

'Foolish, not Social'

2006-05-27T16:23:00.001+06:30

Returning home do you feel you talked too much?Cleverness, do you feel very tired?Do you feel like sitting quiet in the blue cottageBurning incense, after a bath, on return?Do you feel like wearing a human body at lastAfter taking off the demon's dress?Liquid time carries moisture into the room.Do you feel like an ananta-shayana on her floating raft?If you feel like that, come back. Cleverness,

The last post

2006-05-14T17:47:00.001+06:30

It is good to have rituals for the death of an emotion or relationship...This one is for mineMy last post on this topic ... it deserves one last thoughtThank you first for all the sweet memoriesfor that day when I stood looking at you and you turned backand smiledfor in that momenteverything faded awaynothing seemed to matterand i realisedhow beautiful a feeling it isto love someoneso muchthat

jenny hunt

2006-05-04T20:29:00.001+06:30

This event occurs once every 12 years.It involves groups of about 20-30 tribal women brandishing swords and other deadly weapons, shouting out war cries ...hunting for chickens and goats.In a City !!! like Ranchi.Apparently nobody can stop them not even the cops and they do look pretty slick wearing shades and jeans and shirts.Believe me, the scene is even funnier than it sounds.And the name is

My feelings exactly

2006-04-26T20:16:00.001+06:30

DilemmaI want to befamousso I can behumbleabout beingfamous.What good is myhumilitywhen I amstuckin thisobscurity?-- David Budbill

Just comb your hair

2006-04-24T20:32:00.003+06:30

'Excerpts from a Father's Wisdom'Do not worry about DespairJust combyour hairDespair is a strange diseaseI think it even happens totrees.-- A. K. Ramanujanmight I add that ARKS sir has been insisting on that for a long time now.comb your hair, shave everyday and all that stuff moms talk about

gaya

2006-04-21T21:03:00.001+06:30

After muzzafarpur 'Gaya' is a shockerI cant believe the attitude of the people out here, esp. the hotel staffbut this is not very uncommon in tourist places where ppl are generally not friendly.its just 2 days and then finally bihar is done withit was one hell of an experienceI really cant figure out my personal life though.Inspite of me being away from everyone and so involved, its so much on

that gap is the grave ...where the tall return

2006-04-14T21:02:00.001+06:30

'O Where Are You Going?'"O where are you going?" said reader to rider,"That valley is fatal when furnaces burn,Yonder's the midden whose odours will madden,That gap is the grave where the tall return.""O do you imagine," said fearer to farer,"That dusk will delay on your path to the pass,Your diligent looking discover the lackingYour footsteps feel from granite to grass?""O what was that bird,"

Can we fly?

2006-04-09T15:24:00.004+06:30

It has been an interesting 3 days …feels more like 3 months. The project brief that I have been given is more like 3 years work. A similar project was made with dozens of people in a timeframe of one and half years for the state of Jharkhand, my project entails two states, Bihar and Bengal.In a conversation I had with my guide yesterday morning I tried to rationalize his expectations. It was alas

A Geography lesson

2006-02-22T03:12:00.002+06:30

Rarely do we accept reality recognizing its true import.The easiest way is to colour a bit of reality to our convenience so that our self perception veers towards what we want to be. It is really difficult to accept some of the most common and silliest of our traits.

The small boat.

2006-02-21T21:50:00.001+06:30

There was an interesting exercise in the ODD class today.We were supposed to draw something which reflected our personality. I think most people end up drawing what they want to be rather than what they are.This is what some of the samples were like:Sham## : Madras Mail, Passengers get on and off at their own discretion. The train just goes about its business.Shr##: Cockroach, because he is a

The Screamingly-funny

2006-02-18T04:26:00.001+06:30

limericks as i found out the other day are not(as i have mistakenly been led to believe since childhood)just a piece of nonsense verse,they are infact poems where lines 1,2 and 5 rhymeand 3,4 rhyme with each otherthis must be one of the best limericks i have heardi have this inclination towards smalland tightly worded poetryis it a sign of the sedentary life i lead .....that i dont even feel like

And I am happier than you are.

2006-02-16T20:28:00.003+06:30

'Salutation' O generation of the thoroughly smugand thoroughly uncomfortable,I have seen fishermen picnicking in the sun,I have seen them with untidy families,I have seen their smiles full of teethand heard ungainly laughter.And I am happier than you are,And they were happier than I am;And the fish swim in the lakeand do not even own clothing.Ezra Poundoblique

and the days are not full enough ?

2006-02-16T13:19:00.001+06:30

'And the days are not full enough'And the days are not full enoughAnd the nights are not full enoughAnd life slips by like a field mouse Not shaking the grass.Ezra Poundnext to this poem i also found this quote"A designer knows he has achieved perfection not when there is nothingleft to add, but when there is nothing left to take away."Antoine de Saintneed i say more?

behind the name

2006-02-15T14:49:00.003+06:30

hmmmmmam i a drunkard ,or to be more precise an alcoholic ?nope .....than why the url .....alwaysgetdrunk !'Get Drunk!' Always be drunk.That's it!The great imperative!In order not to feelTime's horrid fardelbruise your shoulders,grinding you into the earth,Get drunk and stay that way.On what?On wine, poetry, virtue, whatever.But get drunk.And if you sometimes happen